A Sad Little Moment

Okay, this is pretty private for me but I'm sharing because I need support :) I talked to Rick and he understood, but I'm just wondering how anyone else would feel.

Rick and I have decided that 4 kids is our limit. In pregnancies, c-sections, and our house, and we feel like our family is complete after this. My mom asked if that wouldn't make me a little sad and I said, "Not yet." Well, today I had a little sad hit me. I went to a doctor appointment and we talked about how I would schedule my c-section at my next appointment. Yeah! Then I asked about having my tubes tied while he was already in there. He said he's great with that because 4 c-sections is enough for my body. Then I signed some forms saying I asked for one and went home. I was feeling pretty sick today for some reason and it wasn't until later in the day that my thoughts have been consumed with it. "Charlie" seems to sense something and has been especially active which makes me feel a little sad thinking about this being the last one. I really do feel like I can't handle another pregnancy and that we're a good sized family so why am I sad? Hormones most likely, but also because so much of the last 6 years of my life have been focused on having babies. Actually more than that because I went through fertility stuff before I got pregnant with Carlyn.

Most of my friends who have blogs are still in the baby making years so maybe you can't relate, so if not, how do you think you'll feel when you have decided you're done? I've felt really content until today :)


For a little chuckle after a serious moment, Annie was folding washcloths the other day. She does a good job and loves it. I hadn't even asked her to so I told her I was so proud of her for doing it. She grinned and said, "Yeah. Now I'm a teenager!" What a funny little girl.

Pregnancy, Props, and a little Misc

Well, I was feeling excited that I was almost half way done with my pregnancy. As of Monday I thought I was 19 weeks. When I got the dr office Monday afternoon, in a horrible snowstorm I might add, my dr told me that I'm really two weeks behind. I know its not that big of a deal, but the last two weeks I'm pregnant I know I'll be wishing I could really have been done already. I also can't seem to kick this sinus garbage that I have going on. For some reason its worse when I'm pregnant. I hope I pull out of it soon.

I had 2 really good customer service experiences today. The first was that I went to Harmon's for groceries. Actually, I go there specifically because I know I'll have good customer service there and I can drive up and they'll load my groceries. Even Albertson's or Smith's employees just look at you like you're crazy most of the time when you ask and forget it at Walmart.

The other was that I went through the drive through at my credit union and made a deposit. As a afterthought I asked if they had a calendar. She said yes, but she couldn't put it is the tube at the drive through. I said thanks and I'd run in for it. I don't know if she could tell I was sick or was just nice, but she ran it out to me and brought me an extra one too. So nice and above what she needed to do.

When I got home from the store today the girls were playing hospital. I heard one say, "Okay patient, I'm going downstairs now. I'll come back later to check on you." So cute.